I am standing

Stock-still

In a place that is unfamiliar

I do not look down out of 

Fear my skin has been

Discolored

I feel fine, honest, I swear

This is a mistake

I really should not be here

They’re watching me

Screw the surveillance

The stuff that drove me to it, what you think

Made me do it

Was not alcoholic influence

Just my normal

Messed up mind

This isn’t the life that I wanted

Nor is it anything you expected

I know I should be lucky, appreciative

But the monsters in my closet, they won’t have it

“She’s a wild card,” says society

“He’s an arrow aimed to kill”

But check it, he wasn’t even shot straight

Quit putting people into boxes

Or at least start caring when they begin to

Suffocate

This is a crazy world we’re living in

Tides keep on changing so when will our patterns?

Too many questions remain unanswered,

Too many problems stay unsolved

The weasels on top won’t ever care how much

Our souls hurt

When they don’t even care

About themselves

My few friends fall back on loose change

While I’m scrambling around

You’re in constant debt and right now

You’re knee-deep

M’aidez, mayday

Help me, my dear

They need assistance

& I want a purpose

Teach me, 

How to love myself

Touch me,

Make me feel something I’ve not yet felt

Hold me,

For it has been a short year of many long months

Let me,

Go

I am standing

Stock-still

In a place that is too familiar

I know without looking

That my skin is discolored

I feel broken, lost, and sore

This is a mistake

I really was destined for more

They’re watching me again

Screw the universe