I am standing stock-still

In a place that is unfamiliar

I do not look down out of fear my skin has been discolored

I feel fine, honest, I swear

This is a mistake

I really should not be here

They’re watching me

Screw the surveillance

The stuff that drove me to it, what you think made me do it

Was not alcoholic influence

Just my normal, messed up mind

This isn’t the life that I wanted

Nor is it anything you expected

I know I should be lucky, appreciative

But the monsters in my closet, they won’t have it

“She’s a wild card,” says society,

“He’s an arrow aimed to kill”

But check it, he wasn’t even shot straight

Quit putting people into boxes

Or at least start caring when they begin to suffocate

This is a crazy world we’re living in

Tides keep on changing so when will our patterns?

Too many questions remain unanswered,

Too many problems stay unsolved

The weasels on top won’t ever care how much our souls hurt

When they don’t even care about themselves

My few friends fall back on loose change

While I’m scrambling around

You’re in constant debt and right now, you’re knee-deep in it

M’aidez, mayday

Help me, my dear

They need assistance

& I want a purpose

Teach me

How to love myself

Touch me,

Make me feel something I’ve not yet felt

Hold me,

For it has been a short year of many long months

Let me

Go

I am standing stock-still

In a place that is too familiar

I know without looking that my skin is discolored

I feel broken, lost, and sore

This is a mistake

I really was destined for more

They’re watching me again

Screw the universe