every second you're not here
my heart sinks lower
hearing footsteps out in the hall
voices bouncing off the walls
none of them yours
when the door opens I almost break my neck
turning so fast
straining to see if you've shown up at last
spine straight,
sitting at attention
scanning the room for your face
over and over again
my head and my heart and my gut
all at war
hurricanes and twisters of emotion
resisting the urge to look every time
someone says your name
you're like poison in my veins
killing me slowly
whether you're near or far
there's always a flurry of something in my heart
that I can't get rid of no matter what